It’s All About Decisions!
I’ve been blogging since February 2012, but I have never wanted to share my personal life experience on my blog, so i dedicated it to the cinema industry. Now I feel like I have to publish my 3 years of experiences in a blog post aside from the about section.
I graduated in 2011 with a cinema direction and production degree and i thought it was very easy to kick off in this industry and start making millions exactly like Hollywood directors and producers. however , it was a dream… Since this industry is half dead in Lebanon, directors and producers always need to beg for money from production companies abroad or get sponsorship after many “free” freelance projects in documentaries and short films production. i gave up on my degree and my dreams and passions.. Once a friend of mine called Fadi said that Jessica can make her dreams come true and she only needs a chance.
For a girl living in Bekaa and has to move to Beirut, i need fixed income, so i couldn’t keep on doing what i was doing.
In October 2013, i started a new job as community manager in an advertising agency. I got this job because I am really active on my personal twitter account. At this company, i started exploring by myself what is like being a full time employee in a really gloomy office. I lived many experiences in this company, but i survived. i met many people; some of them are still my friends and others aren’t anymore. they are people that I used to know. I met different clients virtually. I have lived happy and sad moments at that gloomy office which lacks windows.. and After 11 months, i decided to resign. Well my resignation came at the right time because i reach a stage where routine is killing me. i am not motivated any more. every morning i had this nightmare going to work jut like blue Mondays.
Working in social media is so much fun and everyone is enjoying it everywhere in the world except me in this advertising company. My ex-boss might be reading this blog post now, hey ex-boss i am not attacking your company. i am just describing all the phases that i have gone through since October 2013.
I resigned in August, planing for the post- resignation ,A new opportunity and challenge arose, so i was like: ” Let’s do this!” and since day 1, I started experiencing the magic in the new opportunity. I knew that i was dead; i was exactly like a robot doing daily tasks without love, passion or motivation. I knew that i was living in an environment full of negativity. I am HAPPY again! September 1, 2014 , I wake up every morning with a deep breath and big smile on my face .I do everything with love as i used to do before October 2013. I am ALIVE again full of positive energy. That what i missed throughout all the 11 months.
Regarding My endless passion for Cinema, as i have been dreaming of the day in which I will be on one of the Film Festivals red Carpet. It is never too late. Everything is possible in this life.
It is all about decisions! Happiness comes from within. We make ourselves either happy or miserable.